What did y’all think of my last post?
Make sure you let me know. I might do it again, but y’all tell me if I should.
Now, on to why we’re here: Insecure!!
If you know me, then you know that Insecure is one of my favorite shows. I have been a fan of Issa Rae since the Misadventures of an Awkward Black Girl, so as soon as then announced the show, I figured that I’d love it.
I was right!!
This particular season really hit me differently though because I really could relate to where Issa’s character was, especially in the relationship department.
(Spoilers ahead if you haven't watched; just FYI)
If I’m keeping it all the way funky with y’all, the Nathan storyline really triggered me.
Like Really lol.
I remember watching the first episode where Nathan went ghost and getting instantly upset.
“Where did he go??”
“How dare he just up and disappear??”
“HE BROUGHT UP FEELINGS!! HOW IS HE GOING TO JUST GET HER FEELINGS ALL WRAPPED UP THEN JUST BOUNCE?!?!?!?”
If you can’t tell, I have experience with being ghosted lol.
This particular person was a serial ghoster, but that didn’t make it any easier when he did it. I know EXACTLY what Issa was going through when she had Molly go over to his house with her just to see if he was there and stalking his social media to see what’s going on.
(I SEE YOUR JUDGY EYES! DON’T BE JUDGING ME! LOL!)
I was in my bag when he most recently ghosted, but time helps you to move on. He hit me up after a month and a half of ghosting and I was proud of myself because I didn’t give in this time.
The crazy thing was that the day that the 'Issa don gon crazy' episode came out, that guy had been on my mind heavy. The last time he had reached out I had harshly shut him down and I was thinking,
“Did I do too much?”
“Was I too harsh?”
“Maybe I should say something.”
But then the scene of Molly and Issa sitting in the car put things in perspective for me.
It made me stop and think: Why did I really want to talk to him? Was I seeking closure, a place filler, or did I genuinely feel like that relationship was worth trying to salvage?
Even though I think it’s going to be an interesting season between Issa and Nathan (its a part of me that is looking forward to seeing them delve into mental health in the black community, especially with black men) seeing her in that car reinforced why I responded the way I did. No one wants to feel like they are the only one that cares or that is trying and to be honest, I just don’t have time anymore.
I’m not entertaining anyone who can’t show that they deserve my energy.
I’m not rushing it, but I do look forward to the day that I can look at a man and be like ‘Wow. This is why it didn’t work out with anyone else.’ Until then, I’m going to keep working on me, keep getting my bag, and keep being cute!
Oh, real quick! I have questions:
Do you think we’ve seen the last of Daniel? (I REALLY liked Daniel)
Did you think Molly sending Nathan away was a good thing?
Do you want Lawrence and Issa to get back together?
Let me know!
I’m already ready for season 4!!