Past Tense Struggles.
So I've been asked to speak to some girls!!
I have so many feelings about this! Excited, humbled, scared, but ready...
This has been a long time coming for me.
I was sitting here scrolling through my Facebook and I came across this note I posted in 2011. It says:
"Transparency and vulnerability are states of being that I used to rarely find myself in.
Too afraid to deal with the real issues, I hid behind work, my anger, and him.
I let my feelings get buried behind everyone eles’s
Hoping that helping them deal with their pain would somehow dull mine…
Then one day I asked God to change me
Remove the things that were unlike Him and re-arrange me
Then it happened.
Every skeleton that I had hid in every crevice of my life was exposed
Yanked out and shoved in my face until I couldn’t do anything except deal with them.
I told the Lord I wasn’t ready
That maybe I had gotten ahead of myself
But then I heard,
“How can you expect to help girls like you if you won’t even admit who you are to yourself?”
So as I sifted through my broken pieces and truly started to examine myself,
I started to truly see the power of God
Because if He could take the mangled mess that was my life
and turn it around for His glory,
Then I could trust Him with everything
God you are my everything.
And I love you."
After I read it, all I could do was thank God. The journey to self love and acceptance had been a long one, but God had been so faithful and consistent in His dealings with me...
Here's a video of me talking about it a little bit last year when I used to do host a weekly Periscope.
Now I get to share that with others...
Thank you Lord❤️ .