I Finally Asked For a Flotation Device.
I'm a drowner.
What I mean by that is that at times, I will allow life to swallow me whole because I don't want to ask for help.
My pride won't let me ask.
Well today, I learned a HUGE lesson in humility and humbleness.
If you read my blog from yesterday, then you know that I started a GoFund Me to help my pay for the deductible to get my car fixed. I didn't feel comfortable going to one person and asking for that kind of money, so that's what made me open it. It BURNED ME to have that up because I'm not one to ask for help. I had to fight the urge to take it down every five minutes because I hate not being able to do what I need to do for myself.
I don't like people knowing I don't have it all together, but in this moment I don't, so I needed help.
Well, today at church, something amazing happened. Right before church let out, my Pastor raised a special offering.
Just for me.
And I got MORE then I needed.
I'm not going to lie, as soon as I realized what he was doing, embarrassment creeped up for two seconds until I heard him say, "We're family and we help our family when they're in need."
He's right. I've been in my church since I was 19 and I'm as close to them as I am my blood family. Through my ups and downs they've been there and they've always loved and supported me. With that being said, I guess I shouldn't be surprised that they helped me.
Afterwards, I felt several feelings:
and mainly a praise in my spirit.
God really looked out for your girl. My continued 'Yes Lord' has not been in vain and I'm so thankful. God used my circumstance to help me to see that I'm not only covered and protected, but I'm also loved and am deserving of help when I open my mouth and ask.
So I encourage you to get over yourself!!! Do not drown in silence when you have people around you willing to help! Allow those around you to bless you and as they bless you, make sure you turn around and bless others.
After all, we were not created to live this life alone, so let someone in.
I promise it's worth it.