I know that I deserve him.

That's a line from a song I like to listen to when I'm in strong like with someone.

I deserve him. 

What does that mean though?

There was someone that I really felt that way about. He was everything that I prayed to God about and I truly believed that I deserved him. 

Why wouldn't I? 

I was on fire for God.

Work was going well.

Family was all on the same page for the most part.

I was brutally honest with everyone about my shortcomings.

He was the last missing piece. 


I've never experienced a time when everything was going right and I was happy about it. We talked everything: God, our expectations, our future, marriage, babies... As far as I knew, we were on the same page.

Until we weren't anymore. 

To be honest, I'm not really sure what made it go left, but during this time something remarkable happened. In the past, I would've been devastated. I would've embarrassed. I would've been extremely sad and borderline depressed. I would shut down, gone ghost and not want to talk or be bothered with anyone.

Not this time though. 

Instead, I found the silver lining. Our season together was dope, but now it's over. The situation has frustrated me a little, but I'm not going to shut down and I'm not going to allow how it ended to change my opinion of him. He's a good guy, but I don't deserve him. I deserve the person who fits the best in that position and that's what I'm willing to wait for.

So I encourage you today to not be discouraged when it comes to matters of the heart. God has been reinforcing with me that His timing is perfect, so I'm going trust it. The worst thing you could do is meet your mate before it's time and try to force a relationship that isn't meant to be yet.

So be patient. God's best is worth it.♥️





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